-not going to recover-

Today...I woke up at about 7 am...have to go to church to play guitar in the worship team..well it was a ok day..tired but ok ler ...bored at times..no one to talk to at times..well I fixed and see what I have to do to my car..thats it ..no friend,no love ones..no money...only have my car left..with an empty heart..Ate curry chicken with rice for dinner..thanks mummy I love your dishes..Everyday to me now is just time to fill my heart and I wanna forget what you have made and hurt me so much ...I could never believe a girl can do such a thing to me..girls come girls go ..I believe there will be someone who comes in my life and fill in and be my future wife one day..I dont wanna try or look for the one anymore..I guess she will come and I dont know when..why are girls so bad at times? why are they so evil ? why are they so self-centered? why they just want everthing they wanted and dont care about what I feel ? Are we like fcuking dogs or toys for you to play and throw away ? Please I dont wanna think about fcuking relationship anymore..I had enough of everything of everything in a relationship I have experience shit who no one can ever explain this.Time please come in and take me away from this..I dont wanna hear and feel this anymore..I wanna move on..you left me dying by this corner..you slice partly of my lungs and its bleeding slowly and blood is dripping slowly..Im crawling with this injury..I wanna stand up and walk away..and leave everything behind...I have learn alot..why you have to do this to me ? I will never turn back..Im heading forward and running away...take me away from this empty place..I dont want to hear any thing from you...

*god knows everything thats within..........dot dot dot....*

-eyes closed and fall asleep-